Journey beyond plans..

Dear gentle readers!

Sounds familiar? Well, that’s how Lady Whistledown from Bridgerton addresses her readers. I've been watching this series  and can't stop myself from acting like one of my favorite characters. But I'm not here to give my insights on the series; I'm here to share some experiences again.

I'm back quite early after my last blog, as it depends on how much I'm cooked. These last few days have felt like a marathon. It seems like everything was happening at the same time, and we all have those days. Thus, cooked!

But what was that one ingredient driving me the most crazy? Sometimes it takes a while to truly understand the real problem that’s bothering you.

It was “why isn’t my plan working?” So, just to give a brief background, I think I might be the biggest planner in the world. I plan everything. I go to sleep planning my next day and wake up with an already pre-planned routine and bucket list. What to eat, what not to eat, what to read, and what not!

I think planning is the most basic trait of us human beings, but expecting everything to work accordingly is what is dangerous. That’s exactly what happens, too. It makes us angry, anxious, underconfident, and doubtful of ourselves, asking, “Am I good enough?”

But slowly and gradually, when things start falling into place, everything seems perfectly alright. So perfect that one cannot even imagine. But how??? It’s not what was planned after all.

Because it’s what destiny has decided. What you can’t see is what God sees.

Being a faithful child of God, He plans so well for me that I cannot even dream of. And thus, accepting the fact that I cannot control most things gives me relief, and it feels so light on my head.

Not that I have abandoned planning, as it’s really important too, but sometimes going with the flow without worrying about the future and, most of all, understanding the fact that good things take time, we are all living our lives patiently.

Dusting Off the Dance Shoes.

 My own blog must be wondering what kind of writer she is. Back to it after I don’t know how many months.

As I mentioned earlier, I like writing to express my emotions, or to be more precise, to organize those unorganized thoughts in my mind. When I write, it feels like dots start connecting, and I finally reach my destination, understanding all the causes and effects of my thoughts.

So, I have restarted my Kathak journey. It was August 15, 2023, when I finally gathered all my courage and put a full stop to all those 'ifs' and 'buts' that were stopping me from doing this. 'RE' as in I used to learn Kathak in my early school days but had to stop because of studies and all. At first, I always tried to justify to myself that it’s difficult to manage your hobby with studies, and one can do only one thing at a time. But then slowly, it started feeling like a regret, and regrets are the worst.

I had and still have a thousand reasons for not doing it, and the major one was, what if this restarting idea turns out to be stupid? What if I am doing this at the cost of my work? What if I don’t get along with others? The list is long.

These thoughts took me 10 years, and the decision to restart was taken in a moment. I don’t know what struck me, but I told myself that I am doing it and will see what happens.

It was the best decision of my life. It's all manageable because I want to manage it. I could have done it in those same 10 years. But the feeling of regret is gone.

Sometimes, instant decisions or decisions that you take based on your gut feeling, very opposite to the ideal, conscious procedure, turn out to be life-changing. There could be just one pro against 10 cons. Thinking twice before doing anything is advised, which is true and must be practiced. But if we really want to do something, we are capable of turning situations upside down.