My own blog must be wondering what kind of writer she is. Back to it after I don’t know how many months.
As I mentioned earlier, I like writing to express my emotions, or to be more precise, to organize those unorganized thoughts in my mind. When I write, it feels like dots start connecting, and I finally reach my destination, understanding all the causes and effects of my thoughts.
So, I have restarted my Kathak journey. It was August 15, 2023, when I finally gathered all my courage and put a full stop to all those 'ifs' and 'buts' that were stopping me from doing this. 'RE' as in I used to learn Kathak in my early school days but had to stop because of studies and all. At first, I always tried to justify to myself that it’s difficult to manage your hobby with studies, and one can do only one thing at a time. But then slowly, it started feeling like a regret, and regrets are the worst.
I had and still have a thousand reasons for not doing it, and the major one was, what if this restarting idea turns out to be stupid? What if I am doing this at the cost of my work? What if I don’t get along with others? The list is long.
These thoughts took me 10 years, and the decision to restart was taken in a moment. I don’t know what struck me, but I told myself that I am doing it and will see what happens.
It was the best decision of my life. It's all manageable because I want to manage it. I could have done it in those same 10 years. But the feeling of regret is gone.
Sometimes, instant decisions or decisions that you take based on your gut feeling, very opposite to the ideal, conscious procedure, turn out to be life-changing. There could be just one pro against 10 cons. Thinking twice before doing anything is advised, which is true and must be practiced. But if we really want to do something, we are capable of turning situations upside down.
